Sometimes I feel better and I see it all; simply told the plot, one even after another, nothing else. How we met, the wedding, the children, the places... What is difficult about writing it down? (This is I call it "nonfiction"). Just a chronical, almost a police report. But those moments are a few and I need a lot of them...
The Possessed 2003
WRITE : nonfiction
SummaryThe "chronological" and "georgaphical" mini-pages are this very purpose -- the plot. 1980 and so on, NYC -- and other "locations" -- to place my thoughts into historical time and place. How long will take me to "write in" the story? I don't know. I have to rethink my own past and this is more difficult task than thoughts about history. Because this is about "my" history. Personal history, when the changes, yes, the big history, are seen in my private life-story.
NotesPlot are the events my own life in the USA. The story is about America becoming a global power and disolving within the United States of the World.
2004 & After
This page is where I will struggle with the plot. They say that the story is what hero does and the plot is what does happens to him. Originally I thought that I have a "story" -- now I think that I have a plot, not a story.[ outline ]
I made "content" and "outline" pages, but it helped me very little.
I kept my notes, I wrote some texts, but I can't finish the book without giving each chapter its own structure and the whole book the narrative. I fear that the need for strong plot will force me into fictionalization; the only way out is to find this plot inside my own life, to look at the events and discover the drama.
After all, my story of my American family was a struggle for survival. It has the beginning and the end. How to make it into "action" plot? You know, boy meets girl, they live happily after, have children -- and at the end our boy loses a girl.
That is where the real writing is. Our relations could ended many times -- and this is the ground for suspense. How dramatic or tragic it was? See what was missed, what didn't happened...
What if we wouldn't meet?
What if we wouldn't have family and children?
Why is that a loss?
They wouldn't be alive. So what?
What about my own life, my own existence? Do I say so what? do you say it about your own life? What if you would die tonight? So what? What is dramatic than?
See it, the high drama is in there, inside the ordinary.
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